its just one of those days…

i do not think its just me that does not have the “balance” in their life…

i am quite successful at work..(at least that is what i think) and my relationship with mike is great. even my realationship with my mom is great. i am working towards my credit problems, i am actually saving up some, thanks to ING Direct and the United States Treasury. i have great work relationship, i dont have any enemies that i know of. i’ve got great friends…my son is in good health and so is most of my immediate family…

but…

my arms, neck and shoulders are still hurting, i am still far away from my son, i am sooo behind with school work and come to find out, i could not get a mortgage by myself so mike will have to shoulder this mortgage purchase by himself. i dont like that…i think i might as well just rent a house for now. repair my credit history this year and try again next year. grrr..it makes me mad! but its my fault…so i guess i do not have the right to get angry…

i just couldnt have everything that i wanted at the same time…they are scattered…its either this or that..never both…sometimes nothing at all…but i am still thankful for everything that i have…

i am so tired today, i dont feel like going to the physical therapy but i must…the breakfast party for our co-worker was cancelled since she hurt her back last wednesday…everybody is sick here nowadays…*sigh*…i want to go to sleep so bad but i have to read my books so i can have a blasted input oin my philosophy class about heraclitus, parminedes and the sophists…*sigh again*…i still have two more nights of work including tonight and tomorrow night…

i guess its just one of those days…