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Desiderata Oktubre 22, 2012

When I was a student at La Consolacion College (Mendiola, Manila), I signed on to be a part of SLCC on my 3rd yr in high school. I could’ve had a promising career if only I had someone to guide me… I did learn a lot on that leadership training and it includes a couple of favorite literary pieces named Desiderata and Don’t Quit



Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be critical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy.

© Max Ehrmann 1927


what is philosophy? Pebrero 6, 2007

Filed under: english alphabet,philosophical mind — nixinne @ 12:27 hapon

Dr. Grippe,

To answer your question:

No, I don’t think it is okay to engage in heinous crimes even if it is personally or societally allowed. I think, even when these people [who committed these crimes] allow themselves to reason out the “good’ of their crimes, it still doesn’t make sense. Their reasoning doesn’t make any sense, they are nonsensical. Society in ancient Rome allowed barbaric fights between prisoners for entertainment, and yet after a while, it became nonsensical. They couldn’t continue the tradition because as the people think of the reasoning behind this, if it is of any importance, if any of it is logical to pursue, they ended up knowing that everything is shallow, that there really is no logical reasoning behind it all.



to use or not to use Enero 10, 2007

from a conversation with a very close friend of mine, i realized that boys act what they think is cool infront of their friends. But deep inside, they are sensitive. especially when provoked. when we women think that we are getting used by men and that it hurts and that they don’t know what we feel – we are wrong. definitely wrong. i didnt realize that until now.

all along i thought that my friend likes to fool around with one night stands. i never thought that men too, like us women, would like to have companion. that they, like us, are also in search of the one person that will be our partner for life. consciously or unconsciously, we do make an effort to find the perfect one. its not that men just like to hurt women and its all a game, but like us women, they also have their own standards of who their perfect mate will be. If , for any reason, a man did not find what he wants in a woman, at least he has the balls to break off the relationship instead of keeping a fire alive that does not have any heat at all. the only difference is that men is honest to themselves while we, women, are not. we try to change something that we cant and in the long run we hurt ourselves instead of just moving on and forgetting the reason why we are crying ourselves to sleep at night. they are able to see whats wrong and keeop themselves from the pain but breaking it off while its early.

i am not on any side at all. i just notice things and ry to make a sense out of it all. im not against woman. im not against man. we are all alike. a human being trying to find the other half of our self.


book of possibilities Hulyo 25, 2006

like queen latifah in last holiday i will try to start a book of possibilities.

i really liked that idea since i dream of a lot of things. Maybe everytime i think of something that i would like i will just put in on ablog like a scrapbook of the things that i want to happen in the future. what i want to achieve. what star i want to reach. and to dream the impossible dream.

first on my list? to become something else other than a hospital nurse. No hospital administration crap but maybe my own practice as a nurse anesthesist or a nurse practitioner or a forensic expert or a geneticist or damn, i’ll dream to become a person who can modify someone’s view in religion to completely obliterate terrorism ideas of all religious fanatics in the world. or simply just to have a ray gun to pulvorize people to likes genocide, homicide, infanticide, insecticide –WHATT??? ok, that wasnt part of that (duh!, the insecticide!)

anyway, il’ have time to do that book some day…hmmm (looking at the stars while dreaming…) soonnnn…


who invented anniversaries anyway? Abril 10, 2006

Current mood: pissed off

what makes a day special and want to celebrate it every year?

women unfortunately have the knack for making every day a holiday. cookie day, spring cleaning day, pms day, birthday, athletic day, sick day, christmas day, anniversary day…damn, i bet it’s women fault that we have all those holidays.

i am not mad that we have national holidays or birthdays because that is a valid excuse not to go to work. but for heaven and hells sake! why anniversaries? it very unfortunate of me, a female, who is trapped into the tradition of making up anniversary date and trying to shove it into somebody’s ass.

now, i am very much obliged to get mad if the date is ignored. and it is currently getting ignored. and i am getting really pissed.

but you know what? i dont have anybody else to blame but tradition and society because if it werent initiated then i wont be in this dilemma. but if i am to think like a real woman, maybe i should just get mad at the person and not the system. what the heck…i will just evaporate into thin air and get it over and done with. if it is not important to the other person, i might as well, drop the subject, go on to my usual daily routine and sleep the day away.

i hate being pissed but i am not going to sulk and ruin my day just because of it so, to hell with everybody! bleh!


quarter life crisis Marso 7, 2006

an email was sent to me by my friend Joyce. I’ve known her for a while and i am glad we are keeping touch again…

i do believe i am at this point in my life…

‘They call it the “Quarter-life Crisis.” It is when you
stop going along with the crowd and start realizing
that there are a lot of things about yourself that you
didn’t know and may not like. You start feeling
insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or
two, but then get scared because you barely know
where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that,
maybe, those friends that you thought you were so
close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have
ever met and the people you have lost touch with
are some of the most important ones. What you do not
realize is that they are realizing that too and are
not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but
that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what
you thought you would be doing or maybe you are
looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of
socializing with the same people on a constant

But then you realize that maybe they weren’t so
great after all. You are beginning to understand yourself
and what you want and do not want.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what
others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more
than usual because suddenly you realize that you
have certain boundaries in your life and add things to
your list of what is acceptable and what is not.

You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and
cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone
and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the
enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life
but soon realize that the past is drifting further and
further away and there is nothing to do but stay
where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how
someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in
bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent
enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe
love someone else too and cannot figure out why you
are doing this because you are not a bad person.

You go through the same emotions and questions
over and over and talk with your friends about the same
topics because you cannot seem to make a

You worry about loans and money and the future
and making a life for yourself and while winning the race
would be great, right now you’d just like to be a

What you may not realize is that everyone reading
this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our
worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure
this whole thing out.

That’s Life — enjoy the ride”

Never take someone for granted.
Hold every person close to your heart
Because you might wake up one day
And realize that you’ve lost a diamond
While you were too busy collecting stones…=


crying lady Marso 5, 2006

Filed under: english alphabet,for the record,philosophical mind — nixinne @ 4:54 umaga

ok, i thought the night will be great…etc…but i ended up upset, miserable and donet know what i am talking about. i guess this is what happenes when i let my self loose into the world that i should not meddle with. it was not easy, it was just a slip of me. is it really easy to be numb, emotionless, and just plain i-dont -really-care-attitude?

how do you define it? is it really scary? or it is just a misuse of words just to make peace and maybe lighten up the situation? or was it heartfelt, the truth? is the desire to betogether far greater than being apart? whatever it is, the only thing that i understand is standing up on my own feet is better.