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making tough decisions Marso 31, 2006

Filed under: english alphabet,my immortal life — nixinne @ 8:26 hapon

Current mood: tired

i worked almost 15 hours last night. needless to say, i am very tired but i guess the adrenaline rush is still in my system. here i am, typing, trying to see if i can relax a bit before i lay my poor body in bed for a good nap before my next shift tonight.

ive got several decisions to make regarding work. i cannot wait for mike to make a decision on where to work or what eh really wanted to do. i am about to have an interview with UCSF medical center in san francisco this may. i am a bit hesitant because the interviewee is the manager for intensive cadiac care unit. not that i dont want to work there but my preference for emergency room training still prevails. i am hoping that they will call me before i make my decision to fly out to san frnacisco. i wanted to get interviewed by the ER manger and CCU manager at the same time. i am also thinking if i should also send some resume in new york. columbia hospital, mt. sinai, or new york presbyterian are good choices but they “kill” their nurses in new york. darn it. i dont know. california seems to be a good choice. ive got friends there but not that much. i dont know…decisions..decisions…

i need to get myself settled somewhere for a year so i can get proper training in critical care and maybe get some classes to get my masters degree. i am still thinking of becoming a nurse prctitioner or nurse anaesthesist. i wanted to have a house but i also wanted to travel the world…i hate thinking about the future especially i am quite aware that everyday might be my last day and i dont want to spend it ogling for a future that may not come…

for some stupid reason, i have this feeling that i am going to die young although i would be very appreciative if i dont because i want to experience the world and i wanted to see my son, i wanted to be able to say someday that i have accomplished what i want in life. i wanted to be able to spend the rest of my days with somebody that i love and trust. i wonder what lies ahead of me…

carpe diem…

Currently listening:
A Thousand Miles
By Vanessa Carlton


Carpe Diem Marso 30, 2006




i always try to seize the day coz it may be my last day to be able to breathe the morning fresh air, to see the smiling face of the one i love the most, to feel the tender caress of the soft satin sheets under my skin, to hear the music that enthralls my adventurous personality, to be able to sing the song that make my existence more meaningful, to be able to laugh and be merry with my friends, to be able to feel the warmth my family brings to my heart, to love and be loved, to be guided in this surreal world of incredulous proportion, to be able to kiss and make love to the one person that i love, to be able to read the books that enriches my imagination, to be able to make a difference to my patients world, to be able to understand the true meanign of happiness and contentment, to be able to realize what faith means, to be able to feel that i belong, that i am needed, that i am trusted and that i am loved…

carpe diem

i shall seize the day

By Evanescence
Release date: By 04 March, 2003


reminiscing our new york days Marso 28, 2006

Filed under: english alphabet,my immortal life,party pack — nixinne @ 5:25 umaga

last night we went to cookeville to meet up with some friends. davy and shawna ( i hope i am spelling er name right) lives in cookeville while ada, a friend from our new york days who is now working as a consultant in nashville, also came down to meet us halfway.

it was almost two hours drive and being a master driver, mark was assigned the task or was forced to do so since mike and i have difficulties diving at nigh ( meaning, we are both blind). we all met up at chili’s where shawna works. i was so excited to see ada again. i havent seen her in a while and she was basically my drinking buddy and my confidante when i was in new york city. we hugged and shared our hilarious moments together in new york. i drank my share of blue margarita which was served on a fishbowl. darn, that was a huge drink, i thought i was going to have brain freeze. ada got a cosmo and the rest got captain & cokes. it was a great night. we had our happy hour drinks at chili’s and went over downtown. i am not sure if we went to spanky’s for dinner but that place was awesome. the seafood entrees are delicious and so are their appetizers. we all had fun sharing stories of being drunk and other stories that includes pornographic details. ha ha ha. being with mike, mark and davy, i guess that wasnt so surprising. needless to say we even talked about sexual names for the 52 states.., well, almost. we were all just happy to be hanging out on a different venue that night.

i miss new york city or for any big city for that matter. talking to ada, i reminisced our times of bar hopping, living the glamorous city life where everybody is awake and loopy till the wee hours of the morning. not that i am talking abotu booze all the time but even those times that i am actually sober. its ust fun to be able to roam around the city trying to discover different cultures, participate in various events and get to meet people who are willing to party and enjoy city night life. ada and i have gone to various restaurant and bars after work hours just to talk about things. having a girl friend like ada is refreshing. she is easy to talk to and is always up for some adventures.

i wonder what will be my life again after knoxville. i usually say i am bored here but nonetheless, i have met warm and caring people here. they are fun to be with and are very hospitable. i admit, i am beginning to warm up with knoxville life but life has to move on and more adventures are about to happen. maybe my next destination will be much more promising…


ipod addiction Marso 26, 2006

Filed under: english alphabet,hobbies in my mind,modern tech — nixinne @ 7:57 umaga

i admit.
i am now addicted to my ipod.
that is all i am doing during the hours that i am awake.

i am lovin this sweet thing! aside from listening to my music, i can do a lot of things with it. a lot of it are free but if you are like me who wants everything best for my new toy, its not cheap.

i have more or less 1300 songs on my music folder but i still have to make my own playlist.

my pictures are still yet to come. i downloaded 144 photos and i am still trying to pick photos from my 8000 photofiles that i want to put in my ipod photo collection.

as for videos, i just downloaded a home video from one of our trips to see how it looks like. it was pretty cool but i was not about to fill it with just home videos. i wanted family guy in there so i can enjoy quagmire and stewie anytime i wanted to. but i couldnt get it from anywhere unless i am from teh geek squad (ie, need knowledge in using torrent files). so i ended up buying DVD to IPOD software so i can convert my dvd episodes to files that i can view in my ipod and whalla! i got two of them here although i still have a long way to go before i can finish up 3 seasons of it.

another cool thing about this are the audiobooks. i just finished listenign to memoir of geisha and i loved it! i am a fast reader meaning i skim most of the time and i miss a lot of point in a novel but with the audiobooks i can easily imagine myself being where the characters are! awesome!

podcasts – darn…those things are awesome…videos, news, entertainment, comedies and most of all…cartoon! happy tree friends are my favorite…oh…another thing that make podcasts awesome?…its free!


more to come..getting tired of typing…geez…its almost 3 in the morning!


working like a dog Marso 25, 2006

Filed under: english alphabet,hobbies in my mind,modern tech,my immortal life — nixinne @ 6:40 umaga

working like a dog
Current mood: exhausted

yep, i am working like a dog….its just my break from my long hours of walking from one room to the next, faxing medication requests, calling doctors, giving medications, listening to patients complaints, changing IV fluids, getting vital signs, helping co-workers with their admissions, charting my documentations, checking chart for orders, & long standing headache…

i got my ipod yesterday and it was pretty cool but i guess it is really costing me a lot more than i expected…i think i will have to pick up more overtime work to pay for all of it. darn, i got carried away buying some other stuff for this ipod like the itrip for fm transmission of my songs while on the road, ac power, car power adapter, docking system, and a case to protect the screen. my god…i got overboard! now, i really have to get overtime…

its their standard white 30 gig ipod video. i uploaded some pictures and most of music files. to my dissappointment, my msn-purchased music files are not there yet. i will have to check them out when i get home from work today. i also bought my first audiobook – memoirs of geisha. im liking it but i just dont have the time to listen to it. my co-worker, kristi, had time to listen to some music before the batteries died. she is so funny, she’s so naive, or thats how she prtrays herself. she was laughing hysterically while listening to tenacious d’s “fuck her gently” song.

we had some steak out for “lunch”. i got salmon and some grilled mushroom. it was the best mushrooms i had but my stomach is not digesting it well. the sweet tea is always awesome…mmm…sweet tea…

ok, i guess my break is done…i just received report from morristown for a transferring patient…the room is ready…i just hope he gets here before 6 am so i dont have to stay over to assess and chart…


downloading…. Marso 24, 2006

Filed under: bored posts,yada yada yada — nixinne @ 3:48 hapon

yep, its download time…downloading all my music files and some photos in my new ipod…a 30 gig video ipod (white)…but i am getting sleepy now…still need to work later…

mike & mark are still here…it was a rough night i guess for both of them…


ipod mania

Filed under: bored posts,yada yada yada — nixinne @ 8:50 umaga

i am getting my ipod today….

oh, hell yea!

i am excited to go to philippines….verryyy soon, ill be there…im thinking may 15 – may 31…i hope we can get cheaper flights…

i cant wait!