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what the hell is wrong with me Oktubre 19, 2012

Filed under: bored posts,my immortal life — nixinne @ 2:33 umaga
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this is an embarrassing, baseless, useless, unworthy piece of blog. i live in knoxville but it feels like prison, i was once a happy person and i should be. why shouldn’t i be happy? i should count my blessings. i have a husband that is still here with me although i am probably driving him nuts. i don’t deserve him. i don’t deserve this life. my son is also here with me and i feel like i am not capable of being a good mother. i am a loser. i do not deserve to live. i am sad. although people say i should not be because of all the great things i have.

i do not want to talk to anybody. i just want to lay down. sleep. watch tv shows. watch movies. i do not want to trim my nails. i do not want to shower. i do not want to see the outside of our house. i do not like myself. i do not deserve to be happy. i do not deserve to be alive. what am i actually contributing to this world? my husband is stuck here with me when he can be great with someone and somewhere else. my son is happier with his father, stepmom, and siblings, he does not even like my recipes.

there is no one that listens. no one that hears me shout. i am going to do a hunger strike.


humpty dumpty… Agosto 9, 2012

Filed under: bored posts,my immortal life — nixinne @ 9:01 hapon

humpty dumpty sat on a wall…humpty dumpty had a great fall! apparently, i did not sat on a wall but still suffered a great fall. My immortal life is not so immortal afterall! pretty embarrassing it seems. i was taken to the hospital (where I work) by my beloved to get checked out. at least i do not think anybody put a foley catheter on me, so that’s good.

i feel so special…i have names for all my toes now and i am on house arrest! i wish i was at work! (i very seldom say that!)

okay…so maybe i will have more time to post things!


so that’s where my dead socks went…

Filed under: funfare — nixinne @ 8:57 hapon



USA to PHL communication Agosto 30, 2011

Filed under: english alphabet — nixinne @ 4:14 umaga

After researching and trying out different stuff to communicate with our family in the Philippines, i have found several ways to do it.


Skype – its awesome as long


quiet time Setyembre 10, 2009

Filed under: english alphabet — nixinne @ 5:59 hapon

iĀ am sitting here alone in our home office. it is quiet but not emtirely alone. my two dogs are yawning under my feet.

I have to summarize what happened since the last time i posted something here.

december – had a very nice but uneventful gift exchange with my husband’s family. didnt really expect much but i did ge the boys leather jackets from buckle. got several gifts for our new dog, stella, from my in-laws.

january – my husband planned on a romantic getaway at the cabin in the mountains. he also helped me out in making our weddign scrapbook which by the way is not finished yet either. that was supposedly his first gift. i didnt mind. i knew he was broke. i gave him a playboy 1 stock certificate. i though t he was very happy with that.

february – we have received a letter that my son, nathan, will be having an interview soon. we prepped them fro everything and made sure he got his medical exam completed.

march – his interview date arrived but since there was a mishap on his immunization, it was delayed yet again another month. we went to new york to renew my passport and also to visit some friends in the city. paperwork for the interview was finalized and sent to manila with multiple copies.

april – nathan passed his interview. he’s coming to america soon!

may – we went o new york so i can fly to the philippines to get nathan. when we came back, we attended Joy and Mon’s wedding. here we have seen old friends and met new ones.

june – back to work and back to reality. pretty much broke form all the trips to get nathan here.

july – realizd that having a baby on vacation is not the best scenario nor the worst. just inconvenient but awesome as a whole since nathan and i got the time to enjoy a week with my best friend hermione and my godson, luke.

august – first day of school started for nathan. we are seeing a lot of how he deals with things. we had to wake up early everyday to get him to school. we also have to prepare his food everyday fro lunch since there is no cafeteria intheir school. both nathan and us, his parents, were excited to start in this school since it has so much to offer nathan in way of learningĀ  different things.

well..thats all for now…i am sure ill have to write somethign fro september sooner than expected!


it breaks my heart… Nobyembre 24, 2008

Filed under: english alphabet — nixinne @ 10:48 hapon
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Third letter of Ludwig Van Beethoven…

watched it read by carrie in sex in the city…broke my heart and cried a river…

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us – I can live only wholly with you or not at all – Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits – Yes, unhappily it must be so – You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart – never – never – Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life – Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men – At my age I need a steady, quiet life – can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day – therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once – Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together – Be calm – love me – today – yesterday – what tearful longings for you – you – you – my life – my all – farewell. Oh continue to love me – never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours


finally got it!

Filed under: yada yada yada — nixinne @ 7:44 hapon

finally got my darn green card thati was supposed to have anyway 5 years ago! freakin bcis made it so difficult for me eventhough it was their stupid mistake anyway!